Xmas Anxiety = Powerlessness x Uncertainty
I am a control freak, I like to be as organised as possible and I hate surprises. I don't even see value in someone giving me a gift that I didn't know I needed in case it was something that I didn't want or need. Why? Because I can't stand the fact that they would of spent money needlessly and I am left having to feel grateful for the item. Anxiety!
Giving a gift of anxiousness.
I am therefore very interested in not being made to give gifts at xmas time because my receipt of gifts can paralyse me. How can I be authentic in my giving and receiving when I can end up feeling more worthless than when all of this gift giving started.